On the crossroad...

Do you know the days where you don't know which path to take? What will be correct to do and less correct to do!
Time is passing by, and you feel you don't get anywhere. I have tried it, to say honestly I've tried it too many times in my life.
Why is it so easy to make the same mistake again and again? One should think you learn from your mistakes. But not me. I may love to be confused, stand middle in the cross roads and not to know which direction or path to take. Maybe it is pathetic, but so am I.
I look too much forward, that Iforget the path I have been on in the past, and somehow I return to the very same, or most very same crossroad where I stand for couple of years. Pathetic.
I'm a grown up, and should know how and where to take my life to. But here am I - again.

I looked up for the word "pro-active" in the wiki today. A pro-active person who is taking control and make things happen rather than adjusting to situations and waiting for things to happen. Pathetic that I seem to belong to the last group in the definition. Why do I dig myself into such a pity wayn of living? Why can I not be pro-active?
Some days seems more brighter than others - I admit, but lately I had told myself to get the very best out of everything I cross in my life. Easy to say...hard to follow...still I am so happy. But yet confused.
I wish I were more active. It is like I put all my energy on my work and does have a very little to give myself when I returns home. It should not be like that, and I know it is my very own fault.

So today Im cleaning , starting to build up my good life day by day. And yes it is soon my birthday and I have vowed with myself that I shall be better than what I have seen of myself lately..let say past 30 years.

I have this blog as the only witness for my actions. Let us see how it is going to develop in the coming days...

Have an amazing Sunday :-)